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Beauty in everyday life....

Fri Mar 21, 2008, 7:56 PM
So, here lately i've been really emo due to some-things that have been going on in my life. It honestly has just opened my eyes up really. Made me realize what life was about. I was ready to give up and just go on...I couldnt take it anymore. I felt I had no "reason" to be here. Just so undeserving of life. I feel like a really shitty ass mom..I'm not the best christian as much as I should be considering I love God, I love church, and I love bible study. as I'm ready to give up...I think about my child and how he giggles and laughs...how he holds me and plays with my hair when he's tired. How beautiful his little ass is when we're in the shower and he's playing with his "bath toys" as he says. I wanted to be in a wreck...have someone plow into the side of the driver side door and just end it for me. Then I see a tree...a SIMPLE TREE. I remember the day I got contacts years ago for the first time. I remember walking out of the Dr.'s office and looking around, I said to my mother "wow, I've never known how beautiful tree's are" she just laughed as if I were a retarted stepchild. I really thought tree's were mezmorizing. I had never seen them like I did that day. So, everyday after that I would get on the school bus and stare at the sun coming up thru the tree's in the mornings and be astonished. After that...I started realizing just how beautiful other things were. I loved that feeling. I loved loving everything God had made plus the crazy idea's I would get about how I wanted to paint this big amazing picture just didnt know what it would be. That went on for a while. Then I turned to poetry. I felt like I could get thru with words...but I just have never felt like I have. I have so much balled up inside of me dying to sprout out it drives me INSANE. I do the best I can, but NEVER comes out likeI had hoped. I'll take an idea and write it down...but I'll loose it. Then, when I do have an idea when I go to get it out...my brain only lets me go so far and holds the best stuff inside like God dosnt want anyone to know what's up there u know? I love art. All shapes and forms. Drawings, paintings, prose, singing, dancing, music. EVERYTHING...their's just so much I could do, but something wont let me. So, for the longest I lost that "beauty of things" side of me. I HATED everything. When I started dating Kris "Tool" he helped me reopen my eyes to the beauty of EVERYTHING around me. I fell in love with him for that. No-one had ever done that before. I started to lose it again. Fortunately, we hit our first bump in our relationship. It was bound to happen. Just never thought it would be that bad. When it all come down..I wanted to go down with it. Then I saw that tree. Started to realize ever MORE beauty. Decided not to give up...and couldnt be happier that we overcame our problem and moved on. Now..not only do I love him EVEN MORE!!!! Now, I see more beauty in even more things and it just makes me happier! You could slap paint on a canvas and I could see a story in it. You could write a poem about a dog taking a piss on a tree...and I could prob tell you why he choose that tree. I love this feeling and dont want to lose it. Thank God for your beauty and what you see...whether no-one else see's it or not. whew...i'm done.

Thanks for letting me be gay and vent..even though....it's not how I intended for it to come out (it's suppost to be better than this!)

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  • Current Residence: Loudon, TN
  • Interests: Writing, spending time with my son, anything with a thrill, la ink, your mom..and tuns more.
  • Favourite movie: Tuns, I love movies! Mostly love comedy and horror!
  • Favourite band or musician: 30Seconds to Mars, Tricky, Tool, Air, Thom Yorke, Amelie Paulin, NIN, Depeche Mode, and tuns more...
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock
  • Favourite artist: Thomas Kinkade
  • Favourite poet or writer: No-one specific
  • Favourite photographer: No-one specific, just as long as it's beautiful
  • MP3 player of choice: pshh, I have a crappy Sansa...
  • Favourite cartoon character: Pink Panther
  • Personal Quote: In our lives theres an orchastra of things, both major and minor keys, but love will always sing!

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:iconnaiomii:
Sorry, but this chain letter is for real.
When Anne Wichert got it for the first time, she ignored it and a week later the love of her life dumped her for no good reason so BEWARE, and just send the stupid letter!!!!!!


The Lovers of the Heart


In order to form a more perfect kiss, enable the mighty hug to promote
to whom we please but one kiss.


Article 1:

Statement of Love:
The Kiss


1.Kiss on the hand
I adore you

2. Kiss on the cheek
I just want to be friends

3. Kiss on the neck
I want you

4.Kiss on the lips
I love you

5.Kiss on the ears
I am just playing

6.Kiss anywhere else
lets not get carried away


7. Look in your eyes
kiss me

8.Playing with your hair

I can't live without you

9. Hand on your waist
I love you to much to let you go


Article 2:
The Three Steps


1. Girls:
If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him.

2. Guys
If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good.

3.Guys & Girls
Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to
stare.

Article 3:
The Commandments


1. Thou shall not squeeze too hard.

2.Thou shall not ask for a kiss, but take one.

3.Thou shall kiss at every opportunity.

* Remember *

A peach is a peach
A plum is a plum,
A kiss isn't a kiss
Without some tongue.
So open up your mouth
close your eyes, and give your tongue some exercise!!!

Here are a few reasons
why guys
like girls:

1. They will always smell good
even if its just shampoo

2. The way their heads always
find the right spot on our shoulder

3. How cute they look when they sleep

4. The ease in which they fit into our arms

5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world

6. How cute they are when they eat

7. The way they take hours to get dressed
but in the end it makes it all worth while

8.Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside

9. The way they look good no matter what they wear

10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think
she's the most beautiful thing on this earth

11. How cute they are when they argue

12. The way her hand always finds yours

13. The way they smile

14. The way you feel when you see their name
on the call ID after you just had a big fight

15. The way she says 'lets not fight anymore'
even though you know that an hour later....

16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them

17.The way they kiss you when you say 'I love you'

18.
Actually ... just the way they kiss you...

19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry

20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly

21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22. Then the way they apologize
when it does hurt. (even though
we don't admit it)!

23. The way they say 'I miss you'

24. The way you miss them

25. The way their tears make you want to
change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore..... Yet regardless if you love them,
hate them, wish they would die or
know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life,
whatever they were to the world
they become everything to you.
When you look them in the eyes,
traveling to the depths of their souls
and you say a million things without trace of
a sound, you know that your own life
is inevitable consumed within
the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.
We love them for a million reasons,
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind
but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.

*

This chain started in 1887.
It is a love chain letter.....................................

In an hour you are supposed to send it to 25 people.
It is easy, just look into chat rooms and find them.
Anyway, send it to 25 people in 1 hour..
Now here comes the fun part.
You then say the name of the person you like or love and then the person will say 'I love you,' or 'Will you go out with me?'

NO JOKE!!!!!


NOW

THE CONSEQUENCES


The consequences are:

If you break the chain letter,
you will have bad luck in future
relationships. If you don't
break the chain, then you will be a
happy camper!!!

CoNgRatULaTioNs!!

You have been chosen
to participate
in the
LONGEST
and the
LUCKIEST
chain letter on the Internet!
Once you read, this letter you must
IMMEDIATELY
(meaning within
the hour)
be sent to
25
people After
you send it,
make a wish
and it will come
TRUE

YOU MAY NOT WAIT
FOR A CERTAIN TIME
TO SEND
IT........ REMEMBER,
IT MUST BE SENT
TO
25
PEOPLE WITHIN 1 HOUR, OR
YOUR WISH WILL NOT COME
TRUE!
If THIS CHAIN LETTER IS
CONTINUED UNTIL
THE YEAR 2010, IT WILL BE PLACED IN
THE GUINNESS BOOK
OF WORLD RECORDS!

PLEASE CONTINUE IT NOW!!!

*WARNING*


IF YOU DO NOT PASS THIS ON,
SOMETHING BAD OR WORSE
WILL HAPPEN TO YOU:

NOTE*

THE MORE PEOPLE YOU SEND THIS TO
THE MORE LUCK YOU WILL HAVE IN YOUR LOVE LIFE.

IF YOU BREAK THE CHAIN LETTER
(IT HAS BEEN GOING SINCE 1887)

YOU WILL HAVE BAD LUCK
WITH YOUR LOVE LIFE

FOR SEVEN YEARS. THIS IS NO JOKE.
GOOD LUCK

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if you're sad..
buy a happy meal.
:iconpellucidmind:
Thank you:)

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" Art is a proof that there's something more than emptiness " - M. Proust
:icont001:
:iconpinkenygma: :iconcovered-in-love:

hmmm..

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"God's the real artist, I just hold the pencil."
:icono0-schneewittchen-0o:
Thank you very much for :+fav:-ing my Old Eiffel ! :aww:
Beautiful texts, even if I haven't all understood yet... I quite like "Just for a moment".
Anyway, according to you, I hid from the kool-aid man because I could. Why not. But I prefer yours ; go on seducing horses, it has certainly a high interest.
Happy new year ! ;)
:iconcovered-in-love:
hah your the first person to do that name thing. I just did it for fun! Anywho, yes i love that picture! My dream is to go to paris and I speak a little french so I'm all about pictures of the Eiffel Tower! Great job! "Just for a moment" was wrote for my mother if you need translation let me know! later

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~*..and in our lives there's an orchastra of things, both major and minor things, but love will always sing!*~
:icono0-schneewittchen-0o:
I don't think I truly need a translation, but the problem is more that I can't understand each subtlety in english...
I hope you'll fulfill your dream, mine is to go to the US... on my gallery there are some pictures of Paris but perhaps not enough if you're found of Paris !
bye :)
:icontibbettsii:
Thank you so much for the favorite add!
:iconcovered-in-love:
no problem amazing photo! keep up the great work!

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~*..and in our lives there's an orchastra of things, both major and minor things, but love will always sing!*~
:iconblueskye27:
Thanks for the fav! :heart:

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